not even an unexpected branch could scrape me as we pass

when u fall so hard for ur best friend, that's the very moment where you'll feel confuse. u know it could potentially ruin ur friendship but u can't help it. it's the feelings u can't take control over it. it feels amazing to have someone to talk to, share things with, confide in, someone to ask u how ur day was and you'd be comfortable enough to share without fear of ridicule or disinterest. those things of course leads into something. i had never imagined before how it would be if i have a thing for my own bestfriend. never. but as time flies, i didn't realize that the feelings had piled up. when i realized it, it's kinda confusing me because once again, he's my own bestfriend.

but when we've finally made a choice to be together, it's really nice to have someone who really really gets u without even discovering or finding out how. he knows when i wanna be alone or when i need him to hold me close. he somehow understands my limits and knows where to draw the line. he accepts me for me and would never try to change me. i know i can just be myself when i'm with him because he accepts my flaws. and even though i'm afraid of being awkward in front of him, he won't make me feel bad. i like how i feel very well when we hug. we agree on most important things, and we balance each other well. we also know how to keep friends while being in a relationship. i know we're so cliche. i just can't count the times in a day we say "i love u", yet this countless amount never seems like it's enough. the love between us is one of the best feelings i've ever experienced, it couldn't be described. he brings out the joyful youth in me. he's showed me what being happy is and have shown me that i've been missing out on happiness for far too long. the first time he told me how he felt, that he loves me, it was just....ajshdgkjahsgd.

but i doubted that possibility, i doubted us as a couple, and i laughed a bit how cliche it seemed. i mean, yes, i did fantasized about the possibility but i never thought i could feel that way so literally. even at first we became closer, i just couldn't picture us being that close. for me, it was just....really weird. but in the times we weren't together, it was always like there was this magnet inside of us that only we could feel. i don't even remember how that happened, how i felt that. but in fact, i felt that and still feeling it. whenever i see him or hear him or read something he writes, he always give me that instasmiles. i don't even remember the exact moment how "we" first started. but in just one year, he's succeeded of making me afraid because there's only one of him.