bitter//sweet

love is putting up with someone's bad qualities because they somehow complete u. love is an excuse to put up with shits that we shouldn't. that's how it gets u, it throws off the scales so the things that should weigh heavily don't seem to. it's a crock, a trap. sometimes, relationships come with a lot of tribulations. we fight, we get jealous, we cry, we feel pain, we hurt, we get frustrated, we get angry, we get upset. and it feels terrible when we have to lie about the simplest thing. it is when something's not right but we say "i'm fine" instead. so why do we do it? why would we want to feel not just sad, but truly hurt, sad to the point where ur whole body hurts just because of one person, sad to the point where u feel empty when everything falls apart, sad to the point where ur heart & head ache for the company of that being.

i’ll tell u why i do it, it's because the moments when u're truly loving someone are the most touching, astounding, magnificent moments u will ever experience. when two people are just loving each other, it's magical. to those of u who are scared of getting hurt and too scared of the baggage that comes with relationships, let me tell u this, having someone u love and having them love u back is a feeling that u can't substitute. having someone to look at u with such a deep emotion is remarkable, having someone's touch with so much care brings a feeling of weightlessness throughout ur whole body. having someone to hold ur hand at all times just feels special, having someone to be ur best friend and be loyal to u feels so safe. and last but not least, having someone that is ur other half for whatever amount of time u're together, is a true beauty and i wouldn’t trade it for the world.

i've always thought that it was a one in a thousand chance of finding ur true love at 16 and being together for all that time. that is until i met u. i just didn't think i could be that in love with someone and it got me hoping to be with that person, timeless.
i can't guess whether we'll still be together or not in the future. i might hug other guy and laugh with that other guy, but none of them will ever mean to me as much as u do. one thing i can assure, when we have loved someone deeply, the feeling usually doesn't go away easily. it lingers.